What is Jester?‏

recently i learn a new word, which it's 'Jester'.
so i put it on my MSN nick.

many people asked me that what it's Jester?!

so, now i will crap and clarify some of those people thought.. haha

Jester it's actually same as Joker / Clown.
Just that Jester only appear on the Western Medieval time, that serve beside the kings.
where joker/clown will just perform and entertain anyone around them.

Not like joker/clown, Jester will will be more emotional,
Jester will only do things they want, even in Medieval time,
Jester can disobey king's order just because they dont feel like entertain them.. hahaha!
So, rather than say myself it's a Joker, I prefer that i say myself as JESTER!
since it's a new word for me.. wahahaha!!

although i want to make people around me happy and laugh always,
but i wouldn't do things under others' order, i only will make people laugh when i feel like,
not request or order by others.
(i'm not pin pointing at who, but overall there are few people did it before)

this is my personality, i dont like recieving any order from anyone.
(other than my boss, Bo Bian need to look at the salary also = =)

but i will try my best to make others to be happy, even though it needs me to bear some sort of stuff.
of cause, when it's under my own will

i will just do things that i want, not things that others want.
i live the way i wanted to be.

anyway,

i'm not just any Jester, I'm a WICKED JESTER! wahahah!



Ne yo - Mad


Akon - Beautiful (Feat. Colby O'Donis & Kardinal Offishall)

It's Been So Long Since Last Time‏

it's been a long time since the last time i update my blog, haha!

within these period of time, many stuff happened..
things around changed, people around me changed, the environment changed..
the most important it's,
I changed..

how am i changed?

hmmm i also not sure..

i'm no more the person that keep on standing there because of afraid to move on.
I'm no more the person that always stay in the room and wait miracle to happen.
I'm no more the person that just wait the other party to action.

now i realized, actually being single it's not so bad after all.. haha
i can go wherever i want, until whenever i want, go with whoever i want..
this so called FREEDOM.. wahahaha..

i had made up my mind, and i had made my move, so,
Lets hope for the best and prepare for the worst.. lol

Jessica Mauboy - Running Back ft. Flo Rida


Frankie J ft. Baby Bash - Obsession (No Es Amor)

- Untitled -

Not just sometimes, i think it's all the time, when people it's hurt, they tend to protect themselves from getting hurt again.. How they do that? some will choose to hide themselves from looking at the wound, until it heals itself.. some will just look at the wound and pretend that the wound it's not there.. some will just force themselves to make the wound heal faster.. and i am one of them..

But,

Most of the time many things just happened and scratch open back the wounded part. Many had said that i'm being mean, i'm being harsh, how can i say such thing to people. But, i dont think any of them will understand my thought. Do you think it's easy for me to say those things? Or maybe do you think i dont feel any pain also?? Now i only know i not so cold-blooded after all..

Maybe you will think that i treat/say things to you differently or what, but i'm still forcing myself so that the wound will heal faster.. Maybe you will think that i had changed into a perfect stranger to you, but it's just my way of defending myself and healing my wounds..

I know it's hard, but i will still force myself to do it.. because i cant just fall down because of this, Just give some time for my wound and my to heal up, that time, i will become back to the original me..

Simple Plan - Save You


Sometime, i wished i can save you, there's some many things i want you to know

But,

Paramore - Decode


I'm screaming 'I Love You So' all on My Own, BUT My thoughts NO ONE Can't DECODE

Keeping Things to Myself

I guess sometimes, keeping things to myself it's better than voicing it out..

maybe keeping my bloody mouth shut it's the best things of avoiding conflict..

but well,

sometimes things just cant be said that easily.. haha..
but i'm still waiting for the time i can voice out..

but mean time, i guess i should SHUT UP! lol

Currently Performing :-
- Self Improvement on Patient, EQ, Eloquence, Critical Analyze, Humble

So, don't think that i'm naive and nice when i'm keeping my mouth shut..
Maybe the next step you move,
i will be open fire and you.. haha
XD

I think this post basically it's just nothing but some of my bullshit
haha...
anyway.. Happy New Year..

May all your New Year Wishes come true...
^^

我到底在做什么？！

说了一些不是人说的话
理智？EQ？都去了哪里？

伤了你的心，或许伤得你很深
可是我自己的心也不好受到那里。。
说出那些话 我的心好痛

原来想说来伤人 不过现在自己痛不欲生
好让她对我死心 或 我对她死心
不过现在却自己的心在隐隐作痛

我到底在想什么？！
脑袋很清醒 可是控制不了嘴巴

或许就如你们所说
这样深深得划一刀 总比 慢慢少少划 来得好

痛

不想留在家 不想思考太多

痛

能让我成长

梦也有醒的时候 应该是时候站起来 继续走下去

不想再写了
或许blog要暂停一段时间

Christmas Season

After looking at those Christmas decoration at a few locations

Christmas Tree.. Santa Clause.. Reindeers.. and bla bla bla!
It seems like Christmas it’s just around the corner,

I guess most of the people will be happy for celebrating it,

But for me, it’s just the same old stupid Christmas like the passed few years.
Every year before Christmas, I wished for the same thing, over and over again,
It never changed ever since the time I’m old enough to think.
But everytime it just lead me to disappointment,

At first I thought that this year I would make a different,
But it turned up the same like the past years.

How come it can let me down for so many years,
Cant it change and don’t disappointment me?!

Everyone said that Christmas it’s a joyful and happy season,
But for me it’s just another day full of disappointment, How Great it’s Christmas~?!

Whatever,

I just hate Christmas.
Unless it really make my wish come true
I will still wish and hope this year will be a different year,
If there is so called, Christmas Spirit, or what so ever, make my dream come true

Although I wouldn’t be celebrating it unless it true out to be the way I wished for so many years,
But I hereby,

Wish all of you, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

So Called Convo

Last few days, finally I attended my convo,

It makes me waited for about.. hmmm.. 6 months.. WTH..?!
Ya! Thanks to our great Coventry University that set the rules regarding, all Coventry University student will be graduating only ONCE a year, which is in November. = =” swt

Reach there, people help us to wear up own gown that so heavy,
Furthermore, I feel like it’s kind of like..
I mean the shoulder..

with so over of cause.
Why I say like this? Because my shoulder really need a lot of strength to hold that golden thingy.. = =”

took a few pictures with some of my classmate,

then a big group photo, on separate program and whole Coventry University student.

Then we waited to enter the graduation hall,
And sit there and wait for your name to be called, and walk up and collect our cert.
After that, it’s just full of crap listening section.. = =”

Then comes to refreshment section and time for us to find our friends to take picture..
I only got a few with me, or should I said, NONE,
All of them it’s with other friends’ camera,
So I just need to wait for them to send me.. = =”

I hope you like the flower give you though.. ^^
this is the flower from my family.
big different in size.. = =
I guess I make it abit big this time.. = =

So called Convo,
Let me explain in this way,
Convo = Wait + Take picture + smile + take picture + look at camera + chit chat + crap listening + wait again + refreshment + wait and smile and take picture again
The formula it’s something like this…
Understand?
= =

Best Picture Of 2008 Conventry University Convo